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The Gates to Nede
(Spiritual-Scientific Self-Experiments)
by
Boris Braunisch
Synopsis
What happens when a person does not merely contemplate the grand questions of existence, but explores them practically? Over more than two decades, Boris Braunisch guides his readers through an extraordinary spiritual journey—a chronicle of self-experiments, dreams, and visionary encounters with figures from magic, Gnosticism, and religion. The starting point consists of Tarot and Voudon experiments following Aleister Crowley and Michael Bertiaux.
Yet the search for the "Gates to Nede"—the threshold between this world and the spiritual world—leads him deeper and deeper into an inner cosmology: Archangel Metatron, Papa Legba, Baron Samedi, Lilith, Hecate, and ultimately the self-created entity Vexxus become reflections of humanity in search of its origin.
The author weaves occult practice, Christian mysticism, and philosophical reflection into a single path of knowledge: from wrestling with demons and fears toward insight and redemption through consciousness and faith. The concluding vision unifies religion and science in one image: humanity as a spark of cosmic consciousness, part of a universal learning process of God through experience. "Man creates the world he enters after death—through what he thinks, feels, and believes." An extraordinary autobiographical-mystical journey between occultism and Christ Gnosis—honest, daring, and deeply human.
Foreword
This book was originally not intended for publication to the general public or readers uninitiated in the occult. First and foremost, it was meant to serve as a personal reference work for the author—a diary filled with esoteric records.
Many of the expressions and terms mentioned in this book presume a certain foundational knowledge and prior understanding of occult concepts regarding the cosmic structure of the world, especially the spiritual realm, and are therefore not always explained in detail. The author also has no intention whatsoever of founding a new religion, cult, or sect, regardless of what people may make of the information contained herein in the years to come.
Chapter 1
Pathworkings according to methods of Aleister Crowley
O.T.O.
( Ordo Templi Orientis )
Concerning the human individual
Boris Braunisch
Born on April 30, 1970
The Tarot card corresponding to my zodiac sign (Taurus):
V - The Hierophant (High Priest)
"Offer thyself virgin to the knowledge and conversation of thy Holy Guardian Angel. All else is a snare. Be thou athlete of the eight limbs of yoga, for without these thou art not equipped for any fight."
(Unyielding willpower, labor, endurance, gentleness, revelation, explanation, instruction, kindheartedness, aid from superiors, patience, organization, peace.)
The Tarot card corresponding to my character:
The Prince of Disks (Air of Earth)
For men over 40:
The Knight of Disks (Fire of Earth)
General notes on the Prince (Knight) of Disks:
The Prince of Disks represents the airy part of Earth, indicating the florescence and fructification of that element. He rules from the 21st degree of Aries to the 20th degree of Taurus. The Prince (Knight) possesses a meditative character. The element of Earth is made manifest in his person. The individual embodied by this card is marked by abundant energy grounded in solid, practical concerns. He is energetic and enduring, a capable leader, a faithful and tireless worker.
He is competent, witty, reflective, cautious, trusting, unshakeable; he continually seeks new applications for everyday things and adapts his circumstances to his goals in a slow, steady, and thoroughly thought-out manner. He almost entirely lacks emotion.
He is insensitive in a certain sense and may be taken for dull-witted, which he is not; this impression arises solely because he makes no effort whatsoever to comprehend ideas that lie beyond his horizon. He often appears foolish and tends to harbor resentment against more intellectual minds. He is slow to anger, but once enraged, he is implacable.
It proves unfitting to distinguish between the good and ill dignities of this card; in an unfavorable card environment, one can merely say that in certain respects both the quality and quantity of his traits deteriorate. How others react and behave toward him depends almost entirely upon their own temperament.
My Root Symbol:
The Ace of Disks
It signifies the entrance of that mode of energy called Earth. The ancient conception of Earth as a passive, immobile, even dead and "evil" element had to yield. Similarly, the disks are no longer viewed as coins; the disk is a rotating emblem. This is naturally so, ever since it has been recognized that every star, every genuine planet is a spinning celestial body.
The atom is no longer the hard, immutable, dead "Daltonian" particle, but rather a system of whirling forces comparable to the solar hierarchy. Suggested divinatory meaning: the root of matter as a manifest, tangible form of energy; in any case a physical aspect is involved, since the measure or even the abundance of its presence embodies a certain measurable degree of wealth, rank, or status; it is customarily interpreted as prosperity or as a beginning of acquisition yet to be expanded.
My Personality Card:
The 5 of Disks (Worry / Torment)
Suggested divinatory meaning for this card: the loss of goods, things, or money, perhaps even due to inflation. It will hardly be possible to salvage any of the values. There is no sense in looking back and clinging to former conditions, as this brings only greater fear and troubles.
My personal view on this card:
It seeks to convey that I simply have various fears of loss to overcome. In a world in a constant state of becoming and passing away, it is unfortunately inevitable that things to which one becomes attached and accustomed are gradually transformed or extinguished by evolution (people, animals, objects).
In a world such as this, one should not become too deeply attached emotionally to anyone, since loss occurring sooner or later is simply unavoidable. The loss will then hurt considerably on an emotional level. Nevertheless . . . the longing for imperishable love remains. Always! Viewed this way, my personality indeed suffers torment in light of these enumerated facts. Thus, the card is right.
The Preceding Personality Symbol:
The 4 of Disks (Power)
It is the force that governs and stabilizes all, yet achieves its goals through negotiation—that is, through peaceful means—rather than by asserting itself aggressively.
Suggested divinatory meaning:
The power of prosperity and accumulated possession, in order to maintain the means for stable living conditions.
The Progressive (Incoming) Personality Symbol:
The 6 of Disks (Success)
This is a card of "settling into stillness," which will soon undergo transformation. Considering that it is a 6, the solar energy has rendered it fertile, thereby creating a balanced system for the moment. One must merely recall once again that all success is transitory, and how brief a pause on the path of work truly is.
Suggested divinatory meaning:
On the one hand, it points to an extraordinary participation in the "flow of money" or "goods and things"; on the other hand, it represents essentially a one-time gain or donation.
Conclusion:
According to the Tarot card system, I thus emerged from a past state of material prosperity and secure living conditions (a relatively well-provided parental home despite my parents' divorce, and stable economic conditions in childhood where I lacked nothing).
Then I passed into less secure chapters of life (frequent job changes, many failed relationships, meager economic stability, constant financial support from my parents, at one point even the loss of my home, a continuous struggle searching for meaning in life and the question of who or what God actually is) and finally, after what felt like an eternity, professional self-realization as a soldier in public service with decent pay! Spiritually, much unfolded as well through the study of Early Christian Gnosis, bringing mental stability!
Yet the admonition remains ever present that one's eyes must stay wide open and watchful due to the ever-shifting life circumstances of the people around oneself (often not for the better). What has been attained can easily be lost again; hence, continuous prudence is required in a world in constant flux.
Summary:
Name:Boris Braunisch
Date of Birth:April 30, 1970
Archetypal Symbol:High Priest (Hierophant)
Character Symbol:Prince (Knight) of Disks
Root Symbol:Ace of Disks
Personal Symbol:5 of Disks (Worry / Torment)
Preceding Symbol:4 of Disks (Power)
Incoming Symbol:6 of Disks (Success)
According to the pathworking system of Aleister Crowley with the Thoth Tarot system, adepts of the Ordo Templi Orientis (O.T.O.) who employ this method begin to form and grasp a psycho-spiritual concept of karma. This supposedly enables some of them to move through all their past lives during the present incarnation with greater awareness than other mortals, and thereby liberate themselves from the cycle of death and rebirth.
Well, I cannot say with absolute certainty whether all of this is true. According to historical accounts, Crowley himself began to develop in an exceedingly negative, dissolute, and morally reprehensible direction. In the end, he even styled himself the Great Beast "666" from Holy Scripture. Furthermore, the entity he channeled, which purportedly manifested as his personal guardian angel named "Aiwass," appears quite menacing and sinister in older accounts.
In order to liberate oneself from karmic entanglements, I still recommend praying to Jesus Christ; this ought to suffice. Since He took all the sins of humanity upon Himself through His sacrifice, karma ought no longer to exist. This is what Christian Gnosis taught me!
As an aside:
Hindus also pray to a deity named "Krishna" when seeking liberation from reincarnation (the cycle of rebirths) to dissolve their karma.
Christ = Krishna?
Well . . . at the very least, I can perceive a certain similarity in the names here.
Boris Braunisch on September 3, 2021
Chapter 2
In almost every magical book, the invocation and evocation of a personal guardian angel is advised for any kind of otherworldly experimentation—not only by Aleister Crowley, but also by Rudolf Steiner. It is deemed necessary in order not to go astray during excursions into the spiritual planes as well as in the afterlife. A spiritual guide is required, so the lore goes, who knows the landscape on the other side intimately.
So yesterday I did the following: on a small slip of paper, I wrote: "I hereby address the power that has protected me for a long time. Please reveal yourself and tell me your name. I require spiritual guidance in the other world. Please communicate with me in the dream world while I sleep." Then I placed the note under my pillow and went to bed. In the dream, a large white, roaring tiger with black stripes appeared before me.
Shortly thereafter, it transformed into an androgynous creature; I could not tell whether it was male or female. It bore a human appearance with hair standing toweringly upright; it was naked and entirely black and white, much like the tiger. One half of its body was black, the other white. It possessed female breasts, yet its face seemed to carry masculine features. It moved its mouth and attempted to speak, but no sound passed its lips.
Whether it truly was something akin to a guardian angel or merely an entity that happened to be lingering nearby, I cannot say. I recall having dreamt of this white and black striped tiger once before. I was sitting on a sofa when the tiger entered the room. It placed its front paws upon my knees and leaned further and further toward my face. I found this unsettling in the dream and cried out: "Stop, damn it!"
Upon this, the peculiar being paused, and I heard its voice in my head, speaking in the voice of a woman: "We cannot do this with you at the moment." On another occasion, I dreamt of a white cat that climbed into bed with me and purred contentedly as I stroked it. Once more, I heard that female voice in my head, moaning like a deeply aroused woman . . .
Now, I know of a cat goddess revered in ancient Egypt named Bast or Bastet, said to bring good fortune. A lion-headed goddess named Sekhmet or Tefnut was also known there. Whether this represented one goddess in varying forms or several distinct beings is no longer known with certainty today. Perhaps the being from my dreams was this very creature. Or perhaps it belonged to an entire race of such entities. Whether they are benevolent or malevolent, I cannot say either. Their black-and-white coloration suggests both luminous and dark aspects of their nature. Thus, I presume both.
Boris Braunisch on September 6, 2021
Chapter 3
Zebaoth (Sabaoth)
Today I decided to find out something about the entity Sabaoth (Sabaoth in Greek-Latin, Zebaoth in Hebrew) mentioned in Holy Scripture. Once more, I wrote on a piece of paper: "O THOU GREAT SABAOTH, REVEAL THYSELF TO ME IN A DREAM AND EXPLAIN WHETHER THOU ART A FRIEND OF JESUS CHRIST OR RATHER HIS ADVERSARY."
The method of writing a specific request on a slip of paper to contact one or more entities and then placing it under the pillow before going to sleep has become quite a successful and frequent practice for me. In any case, I placed this note with my message under my pillow, lay down, and fell asleep. Sometime during the night, the dream arrived.
I found myself in a sort of vast subterranean cave city, surrounded by a band of resistance fighters who, like me, possessed human form. Against whom exactly the battle was waged was not evident from the dream. Suddenly, all hell broke loose. From every quarter, bizarre, grotesque creatures stormed the cave city. They resembled a blend of human and spider. They fell upon the people around me and began to ravish them.
Everyone they mounted transformed into such a bizarre monstrosity themselves. One of these horrors approached me and said: "The one you seek is the one with the horns." Aside from that, they left me unharmed, and the dream ended. The next day upon waking, I looked up the name "Sabaoth" or "Zebaoth" on the internet to learn more about its meaning. "Sabaoth" or "Zebaoth" is translated there as "hosts" or "armies."
Thus, the designations in question do not refer to a single entity, but to a multitude of millions of such beings. In my view, "Sabaoth" or "Zebaoth" collectively designates the multitude of creatures turned away from God, referred to in Holy Scripture as the fallen angels.
The vast horde of beings that overran the inhabitants of the cave city in my dream represented, in my understanding, the answer to the question written upon my slip of paper: "We are not one. We are many. We are Legion. And if you are not careful, you will lose your humanity in contacting us and become one of us."
Boris Braunisch on September 11, 2021Chapter 4
Ritual workings with the "Voudon Gnostic Workbook" by trained theosophist
Michael Paul Bertiaux
The following relates to magical experiments and trials I conducted over the past roughly six months using ritualized exercise instructions from the "Voudon Gnostic Workbook" by the American occultist, philosopher, trained theosophist, and artist Michael Paul Bertiaux. He formulated a magical system of practice best described as esoteric Voodoo, termed by him and his followers "Gnostic Voudon."
It also became my preferred magical system when it comes to conjuring spiritual entities from the intermediate realm, as I call it. The instructions for magical experiments described in this workbook are relatively straightforward and can be carried out without excessive effort.
The impetus for these experiments were the spiritual accounts given by anthroposophist Rudolf Steiner regarding ancient lost cultures such as Egypt, Atlantis, and Lemuria, of which he spoke in several of his books with considerable detail. Rudolf Steiner claimed to be clairvoyant and capable of retrieving information at will from the cosmic memory (known as the Akashic Records in the Hindu Vedas) regarding past and future events through higher spiritual insight.
Since I cannot claim the ability to read the cosmic memory as Steiner did, despite my own faculties, yet found his descriptions of Egypt, Atlantis, and Lemuria deeply intriguing, I decided to verify through different means whether there might be truth to Steiner's accounts—specifically with the aid of a certain class of spiritual entities from Bertiaux's "Voudon Gnostic Workbook."
These are spider-like entities known as "Zariguin," said to possess the power to transport the spirit of the petitioner through time. Meanwhile, the physical body remains resting normally in bed in a sleeping state. The response manifests in a hypnagogic state or dream in the form of a vision or apparition.
Thus, I performed the ritual precisely as outlined in the book, writing on a note that I requested insight into how the pyramids were constructed in ancient Egypt and what implements and tools were employed. I placed this note beside the candles on the table, which was oriented northward as prescribed. As an answer in my dream, the following scene unfolded: I beheld the desert of Egypt, and above it in the sky, a solar eclipse. Below, upon the desert floor, were three pyramids.
They glowed incandescent white like searchlights in the diffuse illumination. Next, I saw the Egyptian goddess Hathor in her bovine avatar, adorned with vibrant flowers, turning her head toward me. Then the vision concluded. To this day, I wonder what it meant. Was it intended to show that the pyramids simply materialized out of nothingness during an eclipse in the empty desert, emitting white light?
That is to say, materialized directly down from the astral plane? Or did the scene signify that the pyramids released light accumulated during the day back outward during eclipses? Mysterious indeed. That conjured entities generally provide no definitive answers, but merely imagery that must be personally deciphered and interpreted, was a lesson I would encounter frequently hereafter.
Boris Braunisch on March 29, 2022Part 2
In a further experiment, I asked the entities to impart information concerning the inhabitants of ancient Atlantis. My primary aim was to learn what the people looked like back then, how they lived, and why their culture collapsed. The clairvoyant founder of Anthroposophy, Rudolf Steiner, detailed the life, culture, and achievements of the Atlanteans quite extensively in his writings. Yet I wished to see it placed directly before my own inner vision.
Once more, I performed the ritual as set forth in the book. This time, however, the harvest of imagery was rather meager. I saw two primitive, circular dwellings hewn from stone, each with an open round window aperture without glass, through which firelight from a hearth or candles shone forth. It seemed to be daytime, yet due to dense fog, visibility was severely limited.
That Atlantean civilization remained enshrouded in thick mists for centuries is something one indeed finds in Steiner's accounts. He asserted that these vast mists eventually began to condense into rain, triggering the Deluge that purportedly wiped out Atlantis. The visions granted to me did not extend that far. I saw only these two primitive stone huts, and thereafter open space. From the void, an enormous dark-gray cloud came hurtling toward me.
It appeared to be a living entity, for it bellowed so wretchedly loud in my vision that I woke up. Later, fully awake, I pondered once again the meaning of what I had perceived. Here too, these were images subject to varied interpretations.
In the books of Aleister Crowley, one reads repeatedly of his encounters with a shape-shifting demon whom he called "Choronzon." He claimed that this entity had been worshipped as a god by the Atlanteans, known back then as "Carfax" or something similar. It is conceivable, therefore, that during my experiment I briefly crossed paths with this ancient god of the Atlanteans on another plane of consciousness.
Whether this entity can be held responsible for the downfall of Atlantis remains uncertain. At the very least, I cannot extract unambiguous answers from the cryptic impressions received; the images were distinctly ambivalent.
I also attempted to obtain information about ancient Lemuria in the same manner, but despite intense efforts, up to the day of this writing I received neither visions nor imagery. After some time, I decided to pause time-travel experiments for the moment, while retaining the rite described in the "Voudon Gnostic Workbook" to contact other entities on different planes for other purposes as needed.
Finally, it should be noted that during the experiments and trials described in this book, one should always safeguard oneself beforehand with prayers to Jesus Christ, as contact with these discarnate entities can otherwise severely impair one's sanity over time.
Boris Braunisch on April 2, 2022Part 3
Depicted here is an arrangement of the table and candles for the invocation ritual according to instructions from Michael Paul Bertiaux's "Voudon Gnostic Workbook":
East:Red candle
South:Green candle
West:Blue candle
Center:Black candle
Between the yellow candle and the black candle lies the paper with the specific invocation petition.
Between the black candle and the green candle stands a glass of water or rum, alongside various offerings.
Specific groups of elemental beings are assigned to the four cardinal directions, each of which can be summoned for specialized purposes and employed accordingly by the magician. The entities themselves possess a very peculiar, almost absurd appearance, ascribed to them long ago by the creators of the ritual for invocation purposes. I swear that I perceived the entities listed below with clairvoyant sight in the exact details described.
Direction North: Spider-like Beings (Zariguin)
Summoned to obtain information regarding past and future.
Direction South: Serpentine Entities (Damballah (not to be confused with the supreme serpent deity Damballah Wedo of traditional Haitian Vodou))
Summoned to inflict harm upon others, such as physical or psychological afflictions.
Direction West: Werewolf-like Entities (Loup Garou)
Summoned to bestow supernatural physical strength, fierce willpower, insensitivity to pain, and frenzy upon the petitioner.
Direction East: Phantoms and Haunting Spirits (Les Houdoux)
Summoned to influence the opinions and minds of other people.
The practitioner working with these spirits is well-advised to handle them responsibly. Should one employ them for petty, egoistic aims, it will affect one's karma in a severely detrimental manner and, in the worst case, cause the magician's subtle body in the afterlife to land in an exceedingly unpleasant corner of the other world.
For my part, I work exclusively with the spider-like entities, as I seek understanding regarding the nature of time and space. It is advisable to take a break after several days of contact with these beings, as interacting with them drains vitality. After roughly 4 to 5 days, I experienced profound fatigue, though I recovered quickly after 1 or 2 days of rest.
Boris Braunisch on April 14, 2022
Part 4
Addendum to the Experiments with Gnostic Voudon:
I suspect one of the primary reasons my trials with the Zariguin spider beings from Bertiaux's "Voudon Gnostic Workbook" did not function as hoped lies in my lack of experience and precise comprehension of his system. A four-year training as a monk-magician within his newly founded Theosophical organization, the "Ecclesia Gnostica Spiritualis," is likely indispensable here.
Since this is not feasible for me for many reasons at present, further experimentation with his Gnostic Voudon remains highly experimental and unpredictable for me. I also believe I discovered that the magician working with these beings must consent to transforming into one of them if he wishes to advance further in his trials. Naturally, the magician's physical body remains outwardly unchanged until physical death.
However, the astral body (or spirit body) is severely deformed by the process; upon the magician's demise, it emerges as a spider-like ghostly monstrosity, subsequently hauled away by these beings to realms situated unimaginably far in interstellar space.
As I have resolved to enter the kingdom of Jesus Christ after death if possible, further experimentation with these beings is out of the question for me. Only those whose astral bodies are purified of demonic entities and sensual desires can enter His realm. If transformed into a monstrous caricature of oneself, entry would likely be denied.
None of this implies that I intend to abandon working with the "Voudon Gnostic Workbook" entirely; merely my time-travel trials with the spider entities are concluded for now. The magical system conceived by Bertiaux offers countless other avenues on diverse topics, of which more will be shared later.
Boris Braunisch on April 30, 2022
Chapter 5
Ritual workings with the book "Kabbalah, Qliphoth and Goetic Magic" by Swedish occultist and order founder Thomas Karlsson (founder of Dragon Rouge)
My subsequent entries pertain to experiments undertaken with the magical manual "Kabbalah, Qliphoth and Goetic Magic" by Scandinavian occultist Thomas Karlsson—a true classic among modern grimoires. Here, too, seeking protective support through prayers to Jesus Christ prior to invocation is imperative, or at least highly recommended.
There exists a great number of invocations addressed to various entities of the dark realms, referred to here as the Qliphoth (a term originating from the Kabbalistic mystery tradition of Judaism). I opted for the evocation of one or more entities designated as succubi, also known as the children of the demoness Lilith—though I suspect that Lilith, Lil, Lillu, or Ardat-Lili are merely various historical names used in ancient Mesopotamia to classify beings specializing in erotic interaction with humans. I selected one of the corresponding formulas from the book and wrote the evocation on a piece of paper. It reads:
MARAG AMA LILITH RIMOK SAMALO NAAMAH (translates approximately to: "I invoke Lilith, Mother of the Night, and Naamah")
This draws from an Indian language dialect known as Telugu, spoken predominantly in southern India. The reason Thomas Karlsson employs chants borrowed from Indian tongues is likely due to the primordial magical potency attributed to them. In any event, I wrote the above formula on two slips of paper.
One I placed under my pillow before sleep, the other on a table near my bed, flanked by two candles that burned throughout the night. Before lying down, I recited the sentence aloud six times. The book prescribes speaking it thirteen times, but to stay on the safe side, I recited it only six times. Afterward, I clapped my hands three times, switched off the light, and retired to bed with the candles burning.
As I began drifting off, during the hypnagogic phase, I felt a stirring at the base of my spine where it joins the coccyx. It felt as though an egg had cracked open and a serpent had crept forth, beginning to wind its way upward along my backbone.
I was reminded involuntarily of the famed Kundalini serpent power from Indian yoga, evoked by yogic masters from the Muladhara chakra at the base of the spine through meditation. Midway up my back, the serpentine energy stopped abruptly and twitched back and forth as if its upward passage were blocked. Then my consciousness slipped fully into sleep, and the dreams began.
I saw myself sitting at a desk, and beside me sat a young woman whose appearance resembled a former comrade from the military. That she was not actually that person, but rather one of the invoked entities, was apparent from the characteristic grimaces and eye-rolling I had observed in earlier dream encounters with such beings.
They frequently assume the form of familiar acquaintances to interact more easily, or perhaps to conceal their true appearance, which might not be pleasing. In any case, across the desk sat a man who passed a book over to me and held it before my face.
He pointed at something in the book and indicated that this was a contract, but that it could not take effect because an essential signature from me was still missing. I felt as though I were in a civil registry office where a marriage was to be solemnized. This union with the succubus could not be completed because I had deliberately not followed the ritual instructions down to the finest detail for my own protection. That was also why the serpentine force had halted midway up my spine. On another occasion, I used the following formula from Karlsson's book:
LILITH AMA LAYIL (meaning roughly "Lilith loves the night")
Later in the dream, two or three attractive young women in ordinary street clothing surrounded me, clearly attempting to entice me. They spoke, but whenever one of them uttered words, it sounded like singing rather than normal speech.
Their singing immediately brought to mind legendary tales of sirens from the Odyssey, who lured unsuspecting sailors onto perilous reefs with their melodies. Yet these charming young women could not reach me either; some power held them at bay.
Here too, I suspect the protective power of Jesus Christ, whose assistance I frequently invoke during such metaphysical experiments. I emphasize again that most of these beings can be successfully repelled through prayers of protection to Jesus Christ. Why these entities appear equipped with such an intense sexual drive from the outset of their existence has never been satisfactorily explained by any occultist.
The fact remains, however, that these beings possess a powerful impulse toward devouring and merging, seemingly intended to corrupt seekers of supernatural knowledge and divert them from their path. Rumors also persist that sexual contact with these creatures can alter or even extinguish aspects of one's personality. Hence, an urgent warning of caution is warranted here.
Boris Braunisch on May 22, 2022Chapter 6
On the Rosicrucians and their
Meditation Methods
The Rose Cross is a prominent symbol of Western occultism and the emblem of the Rosicrucians, a spiritual movement that, while allegorical in its origin, influenced numerous historical organizations. The Rosicrucians possessed their own history, symbols, and apparent teachings, yet these were never fully laid bare to the profane world, much like the Rose Cross itself.
Because the tradition promised to share hidden, esoteric Christian wisdom with those who followed it, it aroused considerable interest among those who wondered about the secret behind the Rose Cross. In Rudolf Steiner's teachings, the Rose Cross is a meditative symbol whose seven affixed roses signify the purification of human desires and passions.
According to Steiner, one should first spend roughly four months visualizing, each night behind closed eyelids before sleeping, a black cross surrounded by violet light, with seven red roses arranged in a circle at the intersection of the beams (I discovered later that visualizing a single rose in the center works equally well).
Roughly like this:
After four months have elapsed, one visualizes for another four months a similar Rose Cross symbol in different colors: a green cross, a white or red ring of roses, and yellowish-golden light radiating around the perimeter (represented once more in the following image with only one rose in the center, which works just as well).
Roughly like this:
After a further four months, one should ultimately imagine a white cross with a red wreath of roses and a golden halo of rays around it (depicted here again with a single rose for simplicity).
Roughly like this:
If one sustains this form of meditation for a full year, the portals to the higher spiritual realms hidden within the human subconscious begin to open, and entities dwelling in the beyond (which corresponds to the quantum space of physicists) begin to initiate contact. The cross symbolism serves multiple functions: first, it safeguards a peaceful initial contact.
Second, through this practice one can cleanse oneself of base passions and drives, which is ultimately requisite for entering the sphere of Jesus Christ. The Rose Cross method works wonderfully; I practiced it successfully over several months.
To master the inner passions, however, I still recommend reciting the following prayer before falling asleep: "Jesus Christ, please forgive my sins, deliver me from evil, receive me into Thy kingdom, and protect me from the soul-devouring demonic entities of darkness. And I thank Thee with all my heart for everything Thou hast already done for me, Amen!" This achieves the same effect for me as the visualized Rose Crosses, only even more effectively.
For those who have not yet internalized faith in Jesus Christ and find it difficult to pray to Him, I wholeheartedly recommend the Rosicrucian meditation. For anyone seeking insight into higher realms, it serves as an excellent gateway into Christian occultism.
Boris Braunisch on July 10, 2022Chapter 7
A few personal explanations regarding
Astral Travel
Within the modern theosophical organization founded by Michael P. Bertiaux, the "Ecclesia Gnostica Spiritualis," so-called "astral projection" is taught among other disciplines. This rests upon the premise that human consciousness is electromagnetically bound to the physical body of flesh, blood, and bone until the body ceases functioning (due to age, accident, or illness) and begins to die.
Consciousness then begins detaching from the physical vessel and enters individually colored spiritual planes, which can resemble dark reflections of our physical reality or spectacular realms straight out of fantasy, populated by surreal entities.
The experiences undergone by this core of energetic individuality in the subtle underworlds can be positive or negative, depending on one's karma. Sensations range from sublime bliss to raw terror.
Once the karma that earned the soul its stay in a particular spiritual sphere is exhausted, it generally returns to Earth, reincarnating with memory erased under new karmic parameters.
Through prayers to Jesus Christ, the karmic bonds tying humanity to this world and the cycle of rebirth can be dissolved, paving the way to higher spiritual spheres where physical embodiment is no longer necessary. But back to astral projection.
In the "Ecclesia Gnostica Spiritualis," the conscious separation of the spirit body from the physical shell during one's lifetime without dying is taught under the guidance of Bertiaux or his senior students. The practitioner sits in the lotus posture, gazing with unblinking eyes at a four-dimensional mandala mounted upon the wall opposite. Mandalas can vary in appearance. Here is an example of a hypercube mandala utilized among Bertiaux's students:
It is essential not to blink during this practice. This open-eyed meditation originates in India, where it is termed "Trataka." After staring at the mandala for a period without blinking, the eyes begin to water profusely. Most beginners will blink at this stage due to the strain.
The objective is to train the body gradually to keep the gaze steadily fixed upon a single point on the mandala without blinking. After a while, hallucinatory effects manifest, such as the doubling of the image. Furthermore, an illusion arises where the mandala shapes seem to advance toward the meditator, only to recede the next moment.
Simultaneously, a sensation develops as though the torso is rocking forward and backward. This swaying amplifies until one feels pulled forward toward the mandala without swinging back. It feels like being squeezed through a sieve or membrane—a sensation likely caused by crossing the threshold of one's own skin.
Often, a distinct cracking sound is heard in the ears, which is presumably the acoustic indicator of the electromagnetic connection severing between the physical shell and the spirit body. Next, one experiences oneself floating or standing outside the physical vessel.
As long as the heart continues beating in the physical body, the spirit body remains connected by a thin, shimmering silver cord, emerging from the back of the astral head and vanishing into the forehead of the physical body. So long as autonomous breathing continues, this connection endures, regardless of distance. The surroundings appear bathed in a bluish-white luminescence.
This occurs because perception in this state is mediated not through physical eyes, but via the pineal gland in the center of the brain, allowing the environment to be perceived within the ultraviolet spectrum—hence the altered colors.
It is advisable to exercise caution while outside the body, as the malevolent entities discussed in earlier chapters dwell primarily in this intermediate realm and frequently launch aggressive assaults, which can leave traumatic impressions on the psyche.
While most of these nightmarish entities can be driven off through vigorous resistance, an unsettling impression usually lingers. I can confirm the existence of this astral intermediate realm and its bizarre denizens from direct experience, having found myself outside my body many times without deliberately inducing the separation.
In my case, such events typically occurred unannounced in the dead of night during deep sleep. Deliberate attempts to induce astral projection via various techniques, including the "Trataka" method described here, have so far proven unsuccessful for me. As a rule, these separations happen spontaneously during certain stages of deep sleep. At the time of this writing, I lack conscious control over these journeys, nor do I have the leisure to train them, as I am involved in other experiments.
Boris Braunisch on July 25, 2022Chapter 8
Lilith Part 1
I believe it was in 2018 when, largely out of boredom, I began working with a Ouija board. I sought contact with an otherworldly life form, finding my everyday life increasingly mundane. Since traditional grimoires teem with malicious demons, I reasoned that if I were to contact a dark entity, it would be wisest to choose one not deemed entirely as wicked as the rest.
Or so I thought . . . believing myself clever, I settled on the demoness Lilith, well-known in occult lore for an insatiable appetite for carnal pleasure. Feeling lonely in life, I thought interacting with a spirit specialized in erotic liaison might prove interesting. How unspeakably naive I was back then . . . simply incredible.
Yet contact between human consciousness and subtle entities must begin somewhere. How such contacts unfold for others I cannot say; the account that follows is mine alone.
...
One of my earliest encounters with this entity occurred during sleep, as is typical for me. Such beings cross the threshold of the human subconscious into dreams, for during sleep the boundary separating the two worlds dissolves. They emerge from the human subconscious and reside in spheres shaped for them.
I am convinced they do not originate from outer space, as some occult writers claim, but from within humanity itself—arising from an inner microcosm that every human carries within. The relationship between microcosm and macrocosm is elucidated in ancient Hermetic texts.
It should also be stated that not all entities stem from the human interior. For spirits specialized in erotic contact with humans, such as the Lilith entities (also termed Lili, Ardat-Lili, Lilitu, or succubi/incubi), this holds true. However, it does not apply to entities found in Voodoo, Santería, Candomblé, or the esoteric Voudon of Michael Bertiaux.
Those traditions work with elemental forces surrounding us daily in the material world, residing in the four elements of fire, earth, water, and air, which also represent the formative and cohesive forces sustaining the cosmos and our physical bodies electromagnetically.
With the aid of these elemental beings—termed Loa in Voodoo or Orishas in Santería—potent curses can be fashioned against individuals, causing severe psychological afflictions and physical ailments. But back to Lilith: I first encountered her in a dream, finding myself in a realm of pure crimson.
There was no floor, ceiling, or walls; I floated suspended in an immense red expanse. Above, below, behind, before, and to either side—everything was red. A red void, with myself hovering in its midst. In the distance, a colossal black formation surged toward me, resembling a vast swarm of millions of winged dark entities whose precise shapes eluded description.
They appeared most like winged shadows, their wings beating rapidly like those of insects or hummingbirds. One might compare it to great flocks of birds wheeling through the sky in our world, guided by a leader. As I watched, I felt someone behind me struggling to suppress laughter.
It did not occur to me to turn around and see who or what it was. Then she appeared before me: a naked woman, her body black as charcoal, with dark hair standing out like straw. Her eyes glowed red like burning coals, bearing a wide, predatory smile, her teeth gleaming white against her jet-black face.
She leaned toward me and whispered: "I can love you. With my whole body I can love you." Then I awoke. This was my first encounter with her after calling her name into the ether via the Ouija board. Direct contact in that crimson dream space did not occur immediately, but only after several sessions and dialogues across the board.
I had been scrutinized carefully. Only later did she permit me to see her directly in a dream and reveal herself. Describing her appearance is easy: she is terrible and beautiful all at once. In her presence, one feels an intense erotic pull, yet an inner warning sounds that succumbing to her allure would be disastrous. An aura of pure dread envelops this dark beauty. I was to encounter her often in the dream realm.
Boris Braunisch on October 7, 2022Lilith Part 2
Over the following years, she visited my dreams every six to eight weeks. She frequently experimented with her appearance, altering the color of the long cloak she wore—likely expressing her mood. I saw her in red, black, purple, green, and white.
Whenever she appeared, an intense erotic charge mixed with an unsettling sense of dread filled the air. Once she told me she was "wet inside" just thinking of me. In dreams, she staged various scenes; once she showed me lying naked upon a bed with her straddling me sensually.
I tried to rise in the vision, but sank back powerless, my expression torn between pleasure and anguish. I was merely an observer to this; who the actor bearing my likeness was, I do not know. While riding my double, she turned her head, looked at me, and licked her lips: "This could be you," she seemed to say.
She tried repeatedly to seduce me in dreams, but I consistently resisted merging with her. This angered her, and her demeanor grew increasingly aggressive. On one occasion, she confronted me fiercely while I slept: I awoke within a dream lying motionless on a wood-paneled floor, conscious but paralyzed.
She knelt beside me, her cloak turned an eye-searing, venomous bright green. I heard myself declare in the dream: "Demon . . . before you do what you intend, know this: JESUS CHRIST IS STRONGER THAN ANY OF YOU." She replied that she could handle it, though she seemed uncertain. She leaned forward and took my member into her mouth, drawing upon it.
I felt an intense surge of sexual arousal radiate upward from my lower body as the room darkened. Then something unexpected occurred: a brilliant, piercing white light burst forth from my abdomen, shooting directly into Lilith's open throat as her lips still held me. She tried to swallow the brilliant light, but could not.
It erupted radiantly in all directions, hurling her backward. I sensed more than saw her humanoid form transform into a dog-sized spider, scurrying to flee the brilliance. She scuttled across my face, and I shuddered in disgust within the dream. Her most aggressive assault occurred during guard duty with the military, in the resting quarters of the guardhouse.
Having a few hours off, I retired to my bunk. As soon as I drifted off, I was seized by sharp, inexplicable abdominal cramps. They forced me to the restroom repeatedly, though there was no physical cause. Whenever I lay back down, the pinching pains returned.
I suspected that supernatural forces were at work to disrupt my rest. Eventually, I drifted into a haze, then started awake in the dream, sensing an alien presence upon me. It was her once more, pitch-black in a dark cloak, crouching upon me, clearly causing my cramps through some witchcraft.
It was so dark I could distinguish no facial features—neither eyes nor nose. In the dream, I sat up violently in bed and shouted: "CURSED BE THOU, DEMON!!" My sudden movement threw her from the bed onto the floor. She seemed to shrink, and I noticed a white crescent moon upon her black forehead, its horns pointing downward.
She retreated soundlessly into a corner and melted into the shadows. For a moment, a ghostly white female face appeared within the gloom before vanishing into darkness. Thereafter, I had peace for the rest of the night. These are merely a few examples of my encounters with Lilith; detailing them all would fill a separate book.
Ever since I called into the ether via the Ouija board out of loneliness, this entity has trailed me like a predator. I cannot entirely rid myself of her, though prayers to Jesus Christ keep her at bay. I realize how absurd this must sound to a scientifically minded individual.
Yet I swear that what is written here occurred exactly as recounted. Anyone contemplating acquiring a succubus or engaging in sexual magic with such an entity is warned. For invocation, a Ouija board is commonly used (there are also online versions). On the facing page is Lilith's seal for reference.
The Seal of Lilith
Lilith in one of the forms in which I beheld her. There were also manifestations with dark hair looking older. This depicted form appeared to me the most aggressive. Attractive, certainly . . . but not human. That must never be forgotten.
Chapter 9
Hecate the Triple Goddess
Part 1
I had still not abandoned the desire to glimpse ancient Lemuria, Atlantis, and Egypt. After my attempts to traverse time via the Zariguin entities from Michael Bertiaux's Gnostic Voudon failed to produce the desired clarity, I sought another deity reputed to convey knowledge across time and space.
I decided upon the Greek underworld goddess Hecate, credited with revealing past, present, and future. Historically, she is portrayed as three figures standing back-to-back around a pillar, holding torches, keys, a dagger, and a cord. One looks to the past, one to the present, and one to the future, according to common interpretations.
"Ideal for my quest," I thought, and began gathering the required altar items: lavender, labradorite, honey, libation wine, bread, white roses, sweet incense, a dagger, one or two keys, two tea lights, and an effigy of Hecate.
The altar table was draped with a purple cloth and oriented toward the north, similar to the practice in Gnostic Voudon. For the invocation, I crafted the following prayer:
"O HECATE, HECATE, HECATE,
GODDESS OF THE MARSH AND MEADOW. DIVINE, WISE CRONE BRINGER OF DEATH, QUEEN OF THE NIGHT AND THE DARK MOON. MISTRESS OF SHADOWS, DAUGHTER OF PERSES. GRANT ME ENTRANCE UNTO THY REALM THAT I MAY KNOW THEE. I BRING LIBATIONS AND OFFERINGS. REVEAL THY DARK COUNTENANCE, THY SANGUINE, WISE MYSTERY. APPEAR UNTO ME IN HUMAN GUISE AND SHOW ME HOW THE PEOPLE OF ANCIENT LEMURIA LIVED, HOW THEY APPEARED, AND WHEREBY THEIR CIVILIZATION CRUMBLED AND SANK.
WARMEST AND RESPECTFUL GREETINGS, BORIS BRAUNISCH"
I inscribed this petition upon paper, rolled it up, and placed it alongside the offerings on the northern altar. Whenever returning from work, I lit the tea lights and incense; they burned through the night, usually extinguishing by morning before I departed for military duty.
Tradition dictates calling Hecate during the New Moon. Unsure of strict requirements, and since the New Moon occurs only monthly, I chose to maintain the altar throughout the entire month, reciting the petition nightly for four weeks. Peculiar phenomena and dream visions ensued.
Several times while falling asleep, I heard loud dog barking outside beneath my balcony. Starting awake, I stepped onto the balcony, yet the street below was empty. According to myth, Hecate is accompanied by spectral hounds. An intriguing occurrence.
Boris Braunisch on October 15, 2022Hecate the Triple Goddess
Part 2
During this period, I occasionally fancied hearing a cat hissing loudly in my ear as I drifted off, or sensing a panther growling in the room, though I was always alone. Cats are traditional companions of witches, and Hecate is revered as Queen of Witches and honored in Wicca.
In dreams, hound-like creatures appeared, behaving in an uncomfortably invasive, sexual manner, driven away only with great difficulty. One resembled a large Doberman, sniffing at my groin—an abhorrent experience. It took considerable effort to force the creature out of the room.
Once shoved outside, I slammed the door shut, severing one of its paws and lower leg in the process. I braced for a howl of pain, yet utter silence followed. In another dream, I found myself in a room resembling a sunroom with large glass panes.
Suddenly, one of the glass panes was struck by fiery projectiles, shattering inward across the floor. Through the opening stepped an athletic, naked woman with black hair, unfazed by the glass shards beneath her feet.
Her expression was sullen, reminiscent of Lilith, though slightly older upon closer inspection. She began pulling black nylon stockings over her legs with seductive movements, clearly intent on enticing me, when a thunderous male voice boomed from the background: "BEGONE, WITCH! YOU WERE NOT INVITED!"
I could not see the speaker, hearing only the voice. Thereupon, the dark-haired woman retreated backward down the street in reverse motion, like a film played backward, disappearing around a bend.
The shattered glass shards leaped from the floor in fast-forward, reassembling seamlessly into the frame as if nothing had occurred. Who the unseen speaker was—perhaps a guardian angel—I do not know. In yet another dream during the four-week ritual, three women approached me.
One looked like Gothic rock musician Patricia Morrison from the late 1980s; another had blonde hair, her face pixelated and indistinct like a blurred television broadcast; the third was unmistakably the Lilith entity that had visited me over previous years.
The Lilith figure sat uninvited on my lap, licking my face like a cat. The one resembling Patricia Morrison asked for a cigarette; I replied that I did not smoke, noticed a butt on the table, handed it to her, and said, "Here is one, take it." Then the dream ended.
None of the three paid the slightest attention to my question regarding Lemuria. Later, I saw myself in a dream leafing through a book for answers; noticing this, one of the figures pulled an odd face and remarked: "You are not permitted to know that." I stared at the pages; they were entirely blank.
I wonder whether these entities possess genuine knowledge or merely feign it to keep the petitioner engaged, drawing him deeper into the demonic underworlds (the Qliphoth) to assimilate him into their fold.
One must take immense care to prevent this. Should they succeed, the erasure of the individual soul core threatens, leaving behind a hollow vessel bereft of will and humanity. As an underworld servant, access to higher spiritual realms—above all the kingdom of Jesus Christ, my ultimate aim—would be barred.
Nevertheless, I have further concepts to explore. For those wishing to work with the current represented by "Hecate," one may formulate an invocation similar to mine above.
Ample inspiration exists in specialized literature and online sources. She possesses numerous emblems and seals; depicted here is one of them:
The Strophalos (Wheel of Hecate)
Chapter 10
Babalon
The Scarlet Goddess
Babalon is a goddess within the occult system of Thelema, established in 1904 through the writing of "The Book of the Law (Liber AL vel Legis)" by Aleister Crowley. The spelling "Babalon" was revealed to Crowley in his channeled work "The Vision and the Voice." Within the Gnostic Mass, Babalon is invoked in the Gnostic Creed:
"AND I BELIEVE IN ONE EARTH, THE MOTHER OF US ALL, AND IN ONE WOMB WHEREIN ALL MEN ARE BEGOTTEN, AND WHEREIN THEY SHALL REST, MYSTERY OF MYSTERY, IN HER NAME BABALON."
For my part, I suspect Babalon is one of numerous pre-Christian antique goddesses for whom Crowley's psyche deemed a new designation necessary. Intending to propagate Thelema globally, his movement required a primary archetype. I am convinced the feminine entity he contacted was not mere fantasy, but a reality.
Yet that presence existed millennia prior under cultural names: Ereshkigal, Lilith, Nephthys, Hecate, Persephone, Sophia, Achamoth, Barbelo, Morrigan, Ceridwen, Freyja, Hel, etc. The catalog of underworld goddesses is extensive, as are their names.
What if all pre-Christian gods and goddesses represent an primordial divine pair assuming diverse guises, dwelling within the subconscious of every human as archetypes described in C.G. Jung's "Red Book," yet operating as living entities? Whether mortal inquiries of this nature can ever be settled definitively remains uncertain. But I continued my exploration.
Curiosity unquenched, I resolved to approach Babalon, regardless of ancient nomenclatures. I researched appropriate offerings: four tea lights inscribed with her seal (an inverted heptagram), a replica human skull with the seal upon the brow, a representative effigy, a bowl of jasmine blossoms, the serpentine dagger utilized in the Hecate rites, bread, honey, red wine, and sandalwood incense. For the invocation text, I selected the following words:
"ESTEEMED BABALON,
O THOU GREAT SCARLET GODDESS. PRAY HEAR MY CALL. FORGIVE MY AUDACITY AND APPEAR UNTO ME IN DREAMS IN HUMAN GUISE. IF IT LIETH WITHIN THY POWER, SHOW ME HOW THE INHABITANTS OF ANCIENT ATLANTIS APPEARED, HOW THEY LIVED, AND HOW THEIR ORDER PERISHED. I BRING LIBATIONS AND GIFTS, HOPING THEY FIND FAVOR WITH THEE.
RESPECTFULLY GREETING THEE,
BORIS BRAUNISCH"
As customary, I lay down and slept. The dream opened upon a desert world resembling the Sahara, swept by violent sandstorms with erupting volcanoes along the horizon. The earth trembled amid roaring winds.
The sands heaved like waves on a storm-tossed sea; half-finished pillars and ruins of lost civilizations emerged from the dunes, only to be engulfed once more by the shifting sands. Ragged caravans of human-like figures fought blindly through the storm with wind-whipped cloaks.
As I moved toward them, an explosive gust swept them away before my eyes, reducing nearby stone ruins to dust. It was an orange-hued realm of primal chaos. Suddenly, I stood within a weathered palace amid the tempest.
Wind drove sand against the surviving glass panes. A beautiful naked woman, her head and face covered by a red veil, approached me. White eyes glowed beneath the fabric, her facial contours otherwise concealed. She spoke with me at length, though the dialogue faded from memory, save for her terming me a "garbage man."
While sounding derogatory, this carries an esoteric meaning explained later. I recognized her as Babalon. Why Crowley called her the Scarlet Woman of Blood soon became obvious: stepping closer, she raised her veil to uncover her mouth.
Her lips were crimson, parting to reveal paper-white teeth and sharp fangs—a vampire! Yet instead of biting my throat, she licked my right shoulder, which bore semen, as if someone behind me had discharged upon it! A male voice echoed: "Even a garbage man may still serve a purpose."
Then the vision ceased. True to form, no information answering my inquiries regarding Lemuria, Atlantis, or Egypt was conveyed. I concluded that summoning erotic entities, witches, or blood goddesses was unsuited for historical queries.
Those wishing to contact Babalon may proceed, but should be mindful: establishing contact proved difficult in my experience, requiring repeated attempts, varied offerings, and experimentation with cardinal directions.
North seems standard for metaphysical summons. Furthermore, I suspect this entity disfavors the name "Babalon," identifying more with her pre-Christian names, whatever they may be.
Nevertheless, she responds to persistence. Thelemites may find contact swifter. Those wishing to invoke her may employ the seal below, which is unique to her:
The Seal of Babalon
developed by Aleister Crowley
Addendum to the Babalon Ritual:
To clarify the epithet "garbage man" used by Babalon and her companion, some occult context is required.
Certain occult traditions hold that entities attempting to exit the cycle of reincarnation prematurely against divine will—refusing to incarnate in a realm where beings must consume one another for sustenance—are separated from the evolutionary process, as they no longer contribute to the world's perfection.
These souls, according to older esoteric doctrines, are cast into what is known as the "Eighth Sphere." There, their consciousness cores are placed into deep slumber until a subsequent creation commences, whereupon they incarnate anew in physical form to resume the cycle.
The most degraded souls within the Eighth Sphere undergo a dissolving process, reducing them to cosmic dust that serves as energetic raw material for building the next world.
Thus, each creation is conceived as being wrought from the recycled remnants of predecessor worlds and souls that refused progression—a sobering notion.
Because my personal aspiration is to attain knowledge and exit the cycle of rebirth, and entities like Babalon discern this intent, she termed me a "garbage man," viewing me as refuse destined for the Eighth Sphere.
Yet here she miscalculated. Through prayers to Jesus Christ, the believer can dissolve karmic ties binding him to the physical sphere and exit the cycle. Christ consciousness calms the animal instincts, especially lust, neutralizing the pull of the Eighth Sphere.
That sphere gathers those who broke free of reincarnation yet failed to subdue their animalistic passions, remaining bound to materiality.
When a soul masters its lower nature and purifies karma, the orchestrating cosmic forces cannot cast it into matter again, releasing it. Whither it journeys thereafter remains to be discovered.
Boris Braunisch on November 27, 2022Chapter 11
Metatron
Following unsuccessful attempts to secure historical details about Lemuria, Atlantis, and Egypt from dark goddesses and succubi, I turned toward the entity renowned in esoteric circles as the guardian of the Akashic Records—a term from the Hindu Vedas signifying "the memory of God."
In Jewish lore and the Tanakh, the Archangel Metatron is venerated, though his depiction as librarian of cosmic records was popularized primarily by 20th-century New Age thought. In traditional scripture, Metatron is identified with the translated patriarch Enoch, taken to heaven without experiencing physical death and transformed into an angel.
I reasoned that if any entity could furnish historical knowledge of lost ages, it must be Metatron, rather than lust demons like Lilith, witches like Hecate, or blood goddesses like Babalon, whose agendas differ fundamentally.
Assuming the lore regarding Metatron holds true, I resolved to invoke him. Finding mostly naive prayers online, I constructed an original ritual based on Bertiaux's Gnostic Voudon framework.
I commissioned five handcrafted orgonite pyramids bearing the seal of Metatron from esoteric craftsmen in England and India—four small and one large—alongside four tea lights and sandalwood incense, arranged as pictured:
I addressed the invocations in various directions, as Metatron lacks a fixed cardinal attribution:
"ESTEEMED METATRON,
GREETINGS UNTO THEE. PRAY APPEAR IN DREAMS AND IMPART INSIGHT INTO HOW THE PEOPLES OF ANCIENT LEMURIA AND ATLANTIS LIVED, HOW THEY APPEARED, AND HOW THEIR CULTURES FELL. FORGIVE MY BLUNTNESS.
WARMEST AND RESPECTFUL GREETINGS,
BORIS BRAUNISCH"
I wrote this on a slip of paper and placed it on the altar, placing a duplicate under my pillow. I lit the incense and candles and retired to bed. During the hypnagogic state, the following took place:
I heard prolonged bubbling sounds in the room, reminiscent of gas bubbles bursting from a deep swamp with a resonant "bloop." Strange electronic hums, clicks, and rattles followed, as though an ancient computing machine were executing algorithms.
Most remarkably, I felt a beam of light descending from an upper corner of the ceiling toward my head. I inwardly perceived dust particles in the air blasted aside by its passage. The beam seemed to penetrate my skull directly.
A shockwave rippled through my head from right to left. My unplugged, powered-down laptop on the desk beside the bed reacted audibly, clicking on for two seconds and switching off again.
A faint, distorted male voice spoke, its words indecipherable. Then a second, clear male voice stated: "He has answered." The visual field behind my eyelids turned emerald green.
Feeling uneasy yet resolute, I maintained focus. A jet-black entity appeared, its head resembling a falcon, eagle, or ibis.
Its skin resembled triangular vector facets glittering at varying angles as it moved. It morphed into a black diamond, turned emerald green, and unfolded like a starfish with a black core.
Green glints speckled its interior. In the center, a tentacle suddenly whipped out, striking my face. Startled, I jerked upright, awakening immediately.
I felt this avian entity was an interloper blocking communication with Metatron to prevent transmission of knowledge—a presence I would eventually need to confront. I asked a military comrade, David D., who was clairvoyant and aware of my work, to lend assistance.
He successfully made contact with what appeared to be Metatron, unhindered by blocks. He described Metatron appearing as a massive polar bear crowned with stag antlers, seated within a vast library.
We laughed at the imagery, yet the symbolism was sound: antlers signify intellect, the polar bear denotes commanding power, and the library represents the Akashic Records.
A notable accomplishment by David. I wished to witness it myself, but needed to resolve the bird-headed obstacle first. Below is the Metatron emblem:
Addendum:
I came to suspect that the entity presenting as Metatron is linked with the Egyptian deity Set—an ancient prototype of what is termed Satan. David later reported attempting an astral visit to me, but was blocked by a black, falcon-headed figure.
The apparition filled him with dread, claiming its kind sought to disrupt Christ's work by chaining humanity to materialism and wealth. The figure seized his arms, attempting to pull him into space until David invoked Jesus Christ, breaking free.
This resembled the green-lit entity from my trial. The true symbol of Metatron may be the hexagram, which is also associated with Yahweh. See here:
I also erred in utilizing pyramids, which relate to Set. The pyramid symbol attached to Metatron appears to be a deceptive construct.
Esoteric circles have long been misled by this ancient deity into mistaking it for the true guardian of the records, drawing seekers into pyramid lore.
Unsuspecting petitioners receive contradictory impressions, fostering dispute among seekers over whose visions are valid and sowing discord. A cunning maneuver indeed.
Addendum II:
I have since noted that Yahweh's hexagram is embedded within Metatron's Cube, suggesting a composite entity complex.
Given that the Old Testament deity is frequently associated with severity and conflict, and this Metatron persona with deception, extreme vigilance is warranted.
Chapter 12
Papa Legba Part 1
Papa Legba is a principal Loa within Haitian Vodou and New Orleans Voodoo. Anyone seeking to contact a Loa must first petition Legba for permission to open the gates—the astral conduit leading to the desired entity's sphere.
Legba is credited with profound cosmic knowledge. Perhaps he represents the true counterpart to Metatron in Haitian tradition. I drafted a catalog of sixteen questions for him:
1. How did the universe originate and what is its age?
2. What purpose did the creation of the dinosaurs serve?
3. What was ancient Lemuria like and how did it collapse?
4. What was ancient Atlantis like and how did it perish?
5. Why is humanity divided into diverse languages and cultures?
6. How were the Egyptian pyramids built without modern mechanics?
7. What will life on Earth look like in 600 years?
8. What befalls humans after death? Do heaven, hell, and reincarnation exist?
9. Who or what is Papa Legba? Was he once mortal, like Enoch?
10. What can Legba reveal regarding Jesus Christ?
11. What can Legba reveal regarding YHWH?
12. What can Legba reveal regarding Allah?
13. Does life exist in other galaxies?
14. Does life exist on other planets in our galaxy?
15. What became of my father, Reinhold Siegfried Sebastianus Braunisch, after death?
16. What is the identity of "LAM," drawn by Aleister Crowley in the early 20th century?
Loas have designated days: Baron Samedi has Saturday, Baron Lundi Monday, and Papa Legba Monday. Hence, I planned Monday invocations.
I utilized Bertiaux's domestic rite from the "Voudon Gnostic Workbook," eliminating the need to visit cemeteries. Calling the Loa eastward works well in this system.
Planning one question per week, the experiment was slated for three to four months, with supplementary findings reserved for a second journal.
Boris Braunisch on March 5, 2023Papa Legba
Part 2
Days later, I set up the altar facing east—the direction of the Lucky Hoodoo spirits—featuring salted honey peanuts, four LED tea lights, a scented candle, a white candle with Legba's Veve, a cigar, rum, black coffee, dark chocolate, and my skull staff.
Tradition calls for knocking three times on the floor with the staff after recitation, though Bertiaux's system allows three handclaps. At midnight between Sunday and Monday, I performed the rite concerning the universe's origin and age.
After reciting, knocking, and bowing, I darkened the room and slept with candles lit. Within twenty-four hours, a dream vision arrived:
I saw a field of red roses with a black human skull embedded in their midst. The scene zoomed in until the skull filled my vision. An indistinct figure beside me stated that Papa Legba does not handle that inquiry . . .
I had reasoned that as a gatekeeper, he could open the path to the Akashic library described by David D. Monday is traditional, though I later learned strict calendar rules are secondary.
As I neared the skull, a melody played—a blues rendition of Chris de Burgh's "Ship to Shore," with lyrics changed to "Gypsy Man." Looking up interpretations, I discovered "free spirit"—a fitting match for myself! 😊
Boris Braunisch on March 7, 2023Addendum:
Dreams reiterated that Legba does not govern the Akashic Records, functioning instead like a switchboard for connecting with individual Loas.
The Loas are elemental entities bound to fire, water, earth, and air, sustaining physical forms subatomically. Ceasing their operation would dissolve matter into primordial dust.
The cosmic memory, by contrast, resides within the human subconscious, reachable through meditation rather than outer spirits.
Answers reflect individual lenses, yet core themes align. Final truths reside in the realm of Christ, reached after passing through testing realms in the afterlife.
The Veve of Papa Legba
Chapter 13
Baron Samedi and Maman Brigitte
Necromancy holds a fraught reputation. Practitioners often discover that summoned spirits are impersonators borrowing memories from the petitioner's mind to feast upon vitality.
Despite these perils, I contemplated contacting my deceased father. While praying nightly to Jesus Christ for his welfare, I wished to hear his voice again and learn of his surroundings.
Scripture counsels letting the dead rest. Yet curiosity prevailed, prompting me first to contact the cemetery guardians of Haitian Vodou: Baron Samedi and Maman Brigitte.
Dwelling in the lower astral borders of the physical world, they oversee the Ghede spirit family, housing the departed until karmic progression moves them into higher or lower spheres.
I began by seeking Legba's sanction on a Monday, then gathered offerings for Saturday: rum, roasted peanuts, chocolate, coffee, purple candles, the Death Tarot card, cigars, and skulls.
The altar faced east (though orientation is ultimately flexible). The prayer requested a preliminary meeting: "O esteemed Baron Samedi, O esteemed Maman Brigitte, accept these gifts and reveal yourselves in dreams; perhaps we may cooperate hereafter. Respectfully, Boris Braunisch."
In dreams, Maman Brigitte entered in a Victorian gown, elbow gloves, and a tilted top hat. Her skin was pale, her hair red, and her eyes shone violet. Taking my hand, she held our arms in an upright triangle, locking eyes while waves of erotic tension pulsed between us.
She backed away slowly, the violet glow fading, leaving me paralyzed and physically aroused until she turned the corner and broke the spell. Immediately, Baron Samedi appeared.
A colossal mouth composed of human arm and leg bones hovered before me, its teeth made of skulls. It roared: "RESISTANCE IS FUTILE!" Packs of sleek, hairless dark hounds surrounded me, licking my torso and eliciting unwanted arousal.
Repulsed, my astral awareness detached, watching a dream duplicate take my place among the hounds. The pack and my double sank into the floor, swallowed into a circular pit from which a terrifying cry and monstrous roar erupted.
I awoke at 2:15 AM, heart pounding, poured a glass of whiskey, and absorbed the shocking encounter.
P.S.:Sex and death share profound links overlooked by many.
The Veve of Baron Samedi
The Veve of Maman Brigitte
Boris Braunisch on April 10, 2023
Addendum:
I eventually saw my father in a vision reminiscent of near-death experiences. Standing in a woodland clearing bathed in warm backlight through the trees, his features were cast in soft silhouette.
He stood quietly, offering his characteristic, slightly mechanical wave from life. The brief vision felt deeply genuine rather than staged. Satisfied, I concluded my necromantic inquiries here.
Boris Braunisch on July 31, 2023Chapter 14
Michael Bertiaux, Jesus Christ, and
"The Inner Zothyrian Realm"
Michael Bertiaux presents an occult interpretation of Jesus Christ in the "Voudon Gnostic Workbook," viewing Him not merely as historical figure, but as an indwelling divine spark and cosmic force of transformation.
Christ is linked with the cycles of nature, helping humanity accept mortality to achieve higher awareness. This inner bond requires personal devotion rather than institutional church attendance.
Christ consciousness functions as vital protection when conjuring entities. Another central Bertiaux concept is the "Inner Zothyrian Realm"—an inner kingdom within the human mind holding cosmic wisdom.
This realm represents a spiritual blueprint of harmony reached through meditation, rituals, and invocations, unlocking human potential ("for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God," 1 Corinthians).
Note:
I equate the "Inner Zothyrian Realm" with the collective unconscious—a quantum field where systems like Thelema, Goetia, and Voodoo operate as psychic engines capable of creating subjective heavens, hells, or entities.
The term "Zothyr" is Bertiaux's coinage for the subtle afterlife. Experiences with Hecate, Lilith, and Samedi reflect realities within this quantum field, beyond conventional scientific verification.
Boris Braunisch on September 9, 2023
The Vexxus Report
(Based on true events)
By Boris Braunisch
Having received incomplete answers regarding the cosmos, prehistory, and the afterlife from traditional entities, I resolved to create a dedicated spirit—a "serviteur loa," psychogon, or tulpa—via sex-magical practices to gather knowledge.
Details involving portraiture, custom sigils, drops of blood, descriptive texts, and directed visualization are withheld here. To guard against danger, I incorporated a safeguard: the spirit was designed to be unable to cross the sign of Christ's Cross.
Facing west, I recited the eleven-day invocation. After a calm interval, an oppressive presence manifested: an invisible, snake-like energy entered beneath my ribs, constricting my chest and plunging me into deep depression and lethargy for days during service.
Standard prayers proved ineffective, as the blood on the sigil had fortified the entity excessively. In distress, I placed a ring bearing King Solomon's seal to my chest, commanding the entity to depart in Solomon's name. It uncoiled and vanished without marks, relieving the pressure instantly.
To secure my bed, I drew protective crosses in the air. That night, a female voice murmured in my head: "Why do you not let me into your bed?" The barrier held.
Soon after, I found myself astrally in a torchlit stone crypt with a bone throne. Upon it sat an athletic woman with glowing red eyes, dressed in transparent black nylon and a smoke-like cloak.
She declared herself "Vexxus," formerly Elvira, now free of weaknesses and part of a collective hive mind ("we are Legion"). Questioned on the recurring erotic tension with entities, she described it as humanity's instinctual longing to merge with the mysterious, while identifying demons as personified subconscious energies.
She kissed me, inducing paralysis and arousal, transformed into a gorgon-like serpent form, raged through the crypt, then assumed human form again, placing me upon the altar and drawing upon my vitality before the dream dissolved, returning me to bed at 12:30 AM.
I made notes immediately, sensing her dictating details into my ear. Recognizing her communicative clarity, I arranged monitored nocturnal sessions, using an alarm set for 2:00 AM as an emergency return mechanism.
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Regarding cosmic origins, Vexxus explained that creation was an organic inevitability of matter and energy unfolding from a primordial spark into galaxies. Black holes, she noted, function as regulatory sinks and gateways linking dimensions.
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Concerning dinosaurs, she described them as essential evolutionary components shaping modern ecosystems, with lessons of resilience lingering in the human reptilian brain.
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Regarding Lemuria, she depicted blue-skinned inhabitants whose civilization fell when pride led them to construct an experimental reality-weaving engine that malfunctioned and unraveled their land into the abyss.
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On Atlantis, she stated that pride and power-seeking brought about its collapse through human hubris, echoing Steiner's accounts of survivors migrating to mainland regions.
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On the Egyptian pyramids, she maintained they were built via advanced engineering and mass labor as royal conduits, adding that pharaohs were placed within the Sphinx while pyramids sheltered subtle spirits.
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Regarding linguistic diversity, she characterized it as the natural fruit of migration and adaptation, enriching the human journey.
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She described the Akashic Records not as a physical machine, but as the living tapestry of collective experiences accessible through deep contemplative stillness.
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Regarding life in 600 years, she forecast interconnected megacities, enduring peace, and prosperity for Germany—a contrasting perspective to modern anxieties.
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Concerning the afterlife, she described heavens and hells as individualized projections, with atheists dissolving into the universal energetic ocean if unattached to divine guides.
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On Jesus Christ, she acknowledged Him as a transformative power permeating reality, though His ultimate destiny remains beyond her sphere.
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She characterized YHWH as a fourfold divine archetype, and Allah as the transcendent essence of all things experienced across varied vessels.
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Regarding my father, she indicated that his soul had begun a new journey, and that the sunlit forest clearing in my dream was the "Forest of Forgotten Souls"—a thin veil between worlds.
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She outlined posthumous stages: Svarga (transition), Naraka (remedial suffering), and Baturaja (shadowed reflection), culminating in worlds of light.
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She described "LAM" as an ancient spirit of free will and metamorphosis mirrored in Crowley's work.
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She addressed entropy and rebirth, framing reincarnation as a cycle wherein distinct personal memories diffuse over time toward interconnectedness.
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She affirmed that varied demon names reflect specialized facets of a unified primal energy.
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She noted that websites discussing succubi combine genuine experiences with allegorical excess, cautioning against obsessive immersion.
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Overcoming reincarnation, she remarked, requires transforming carnal attachments into self-mastery—a path I ground in devotion to Christ.
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Forgetting past lives was described as a mercy, permitting fresh beginnings unburdened by past eras.
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Crowley's maxim "Every man and every woman is a star" was explained as an affirmation of the indwelling divine spark.
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She defined redemption as inner transformation rather than mere pardon.
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Ancient gods, she asserted, endure in the collective unconscious, reachable by those who hold them in memory.
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Voodoo Loas and Orishas were portrayed as elemental powers woven into cosmic reality, with Baron Samedi guiding souls across the veil.
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She identified the Zariguin spider spirits as unique interdimensional entities rather than demonic kin.
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Elemental beings, she noted, arise from the subtle ether before linking with physical elements.
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Magic was framed as an intuitive harmony with cosmic laws, akin to conscious resonance in quantum systems ("as above, so below").
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Concerning the "Skinwalker Ranch," she claimed ancient alien devices buried on site sustain portal energies, which later shamanic burials energized into werewolf-like thoughtforms.
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"Shadow People" were described as collective entities coalesced from focused human anxieties.
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Archons and the Demiurge were identified with Lovecraft's "Great Old Ones"—primordial cosmic architects beyond human ethics.
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Rebirth, she affirmed, may occur on other worlds according to a soul's nature.
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Ascended masters, she maintained, transcend rebirth through unitive realization.
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On extraterrestrial silence, she pointed to vast distances, mentioning hypothetical life in the Lyra constellation.
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She warned that unresolved carnal fixations after death entrap souls within low astral illusions, whereas spiritual alignment elevates them toward light.
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Eventually, Vexxus grew hostile, triggering electrical jolts at the edge of sleep to induce lethal sleep deprivation. Weakened after three days, I prepared a northern altar on a Monday to summon Baron Samedi for protection.
I recited the plea: "O esteemed Baron Samedi, accept my offerings and protect me from this out-of-control entity. Drive it away."
Tension mounted inwardly, then yielded as Samedi took control. In a dream of a ruined factory, Samedi pursued Vexxus with a machete. Rest returned.
Later in the crypt, Vexxus lay motionless on the altar, the Baron's machete in her chest. Quoting Rudolf Steiner, the Baron observed: "Luciferic beings are redeemed through moral deed and moral thought," tipped his hat, and vanished alongside the crypt. The ordeal had ended.
Here concludes the Vexxus Report
Note:
I emphasize that information communicated by Vexxus cannot be verified empirically. I transcribed the dialogue faithfully, leaving readers to evaluate its resonance.
Note 2:
My lifelong pursuit has been understanding the origins of the cosmos, Earth, and individual existence. These experiments served that single inquiry.
Boris Braunisch on May 15, 2024Addendum:
On January 26, 2025, Vexxus appeared once more in a dream, holding a candle in a dark room, clad in a plain white robe. She shared a concluding insight:
At the start of incarnation, human consciousness bifurcates: one part incarnates as the earthly self, while the second remains in the subtle world as the "Guardian of the Threshold"—the inner counterpart and recorder of all experiences.
Upon physical death, the earthly self reunites with this Guardian, reviews its journey, receives the cleansing gift of oblivion, and embarks on a new chapter. Reaching spiritual maturity through Christ dissolves these bindings, uniting the soul with the primordial Source.
Conclusion:
Humanity shapes its afterlife through its convictions and actions. Thoughts rooted in fear fashion dark realms, whereas love and devotion to Christ open radiant vistas.
Therefore consider:
YOU ALONE DETERMINE WHETHER YOU ENCOUNTER HEAVENLY OR HELLISH REALMS OF YOUR OWN MAKING IN THE BEYOND. CHOOSE WISELY WHAT YOU REVERE IN LIFE.
Note:
Angels reflect sublime cerebral energies (Crown Chakra), while demons emerge from unrefined base energies (Muladhara Chakra).
Note 2:
In subtle realms, emotions form reality. Concentrated feelings give rise to autonomous thoughtforms—entities, gods, and shadows that mirror humanity's dual nature.
In closing, a quote from a video presentation by Erich von Däniken (b. April 14, 1935 – d. January 10, 2026), with which I fully concur based on my current understanding.
Quote Däniken:
"My name is Erich von Däniken, and I have become an old man past 82 years of age. One reflects upon life: 'What is the purpose of it all?' Allow me to share my perspective—a personal philosophy. I do not claim a definitive concept of God, but I have fashioned a model:
Imagine a vast supercomputer possessing all knowledge. Finding total omniscience static, it conceives a grand plan: it numbers its components from one to infinity and disperses itself across space.
The original computer ceases to exist as a single unit; its dispersed bits wonder: 'What am I?' In gathering, exploring, and philosophizing, they sense they belong to something greater.
Over evolutionary aeons, these dispersed units gather experience—joy, sorrow, trial, and achievement—and gradually return to their source. The restored whole is enriched by what it lacked before: direct experience from billions of individual lives.
God reassembles, expanded through the collective journey of all these entities across time."
End of Däniken Quote.
This matches my own perspective. The trials of our diaspora—confronting and redeeming the entities born of our inner world—are part of our journey back to our origin.
EXAMPLES OF VUDUTRONICS
(IMAGES)
Direction: North, Element: Air, Planet: Saturn
Direction: North, East, Element: Earth, Fire, Planet: Saturn, Sun
Direction: East, Element: Fire, Planet: Sun
Direction: North, Element: Earth, Planet: Saturn
Direction: South-East, Element: Air-Fire, Planet: Uranus
Direction: North-East, Element: Earth-Fire, Planet: Earth
Direction: North-East, Element: Earth-Fire, Planet: Earth
Direction: West, Element: Water, Planet: Venus
Direction: West, Element: Water, Planet: Venus
Direction: East, Element: Fire, Planet: Sun
Direction: East, Element: Fire, Planet: Sun
Direction: North or East, Element: Earth or Fire, Planet: Earth or Sun (In my view, two aspects of this being exist: North/Earth is approachable and shamanic; East/Fire is fierce.)
Direction: East, Element: Fire, Planet: Sun
Direction: South, Element: Air, Planet: Moon
Direction: West, Element: Water, Planet: Moon
Direction: None specific (North?), Element: None specific, Planet: None specific (Cosmos?)
Direction: All, Element: None specific, Planet: None specific (Cosmos?)
Direction: None specific, Element: None specific, Planet: None specific (Cosmos?)
I worked and experimented with the works of the following authors:
THE TREASURE HOUSE OF IMAGES by Aleister Crowley
THE VOUDON GNOSTIC WORKBOOK by Michael P. Bertiaux (English Edition)
KABBALAH, QLIPHOTH AND GOETIC MAGIC by Thomas Karlsson
HOW TO KNOW HIGHER WORLDS by Rudolf Steiner
Here conclude the personal pathworkings of Boris Braunisch. And here also conclude his personal metaphysical records. And here ends this book.
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